I think perhaps the most surreal experience in my life has got to have been tonight...
Just discussing the logistics of "what's next" this afternoon was difficult enough. But sitting up here and waiting - knowing that my best friend and his lover were going to be performing for me was "curiouser and curiouser" - as if I suddenly took a sharp turn and found myself with a part to play in someone else's life. As if I haven't been preparing for this very moment for over two years!
Then hearing the knock on the bedroom door and facing my dear friend, the man I've known 20 years, as he hands me a syringe with his sperm and apologizes that there isn't more. (I think that moment will stay with me for the rest of my life!!)
That was one of the more awkward experiences I've had. A kiss, he wished me good luck changed it to break a leg (can you tell we're still ultimately performers?) then finished with I don't really know what to say... And that probably sums it up the best because I don't know what to say either. I do know I'm very blessed. What an amazing friend I have.
I have read many stories on the blogs from Jellybean Mama's 13 month journey for her home insemination to Jennifer and Tate's done in one. Obviously, Jennifer and Tate's story is a favorite!! This cycle is the last one before school starts back. So I am hoping for a miracle. Because from what I've read - how many things have to be just so - it is truly a miracle that anyone conceives!
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